C'est LA viE

America's next top models, project runway, America's next great restaurant, amazing race, master chef, top chef..
I love realities shows, in fact, realities shows themselves weren't revealing the reality
they were making the realities which public enjoy watching, and so the contestants were demanded to create these realities
that's the reality, people love shows effect, people love tears, fight, gossips
therefore, who knows the evil sabotaging girl was actually a lovely girl behind, in turns the demond have become an angel??

so let's put the show effect aside, and talk about the purpose..
indeed, the contestants were so close to their dreams, but they are also so close to lose it
and not to mention how the judges critize their effort and ruined their heart
that was one time when i was watching top chef, the contestant's dish was described as pet food
and the funniest thing is do these judges know how to cook??
well the person who said these mean words was in fact named himself as magazine editor or whatever...
but in fact some audience enjoy watching people lose and shouting: wooh, now u understand achieving a dream did not sound easy
well, i would say is better than if you dint have one...

i love people putting their effort to approach their dream, i love people cheering how their dreams come true
i love people sharing their dreams, from a tiny bits to a huge, impossible one
therefore, i cherish for people who taking their very first step to the audition, showing their courage, telling people who they are and what they want
u might fail, but you did something....
everyone is watching, but you weren't alone, there were enemy, but there were also frens...
is great to see how america's next top model transform the neighbourhood girl, how project runway inspired the design industry
how great chef can be born from a household kitchen, or even how encouraged are those business minded person were willing to invest your concepted restaurant

cheer for all of you who found your dream, let's make it true!

你真的认识你身边的朋友吗？你觉得他们真的懂你吗？
曾经何时，我可以坚定不移的说，我知道
但现在，我可能语带保留，因为很多时候，最懂我们自己的也只有我们自己而已

'unless you are google, or else, don't pretend you knows everything'

即使你是最厉害的浏览器，你并非知道我的所有
所以当他允许我浏览他的部落格时，我真的很不知所措
原来一切不是我想象的那样，我们并不深交，但我对他的印象从来不是那样
所以当他愿意和我分享这个原来的他时，我不禁冒汗
很意外，也很难以接受。。。但是我真的很感激
谢谢他愿意懈下面具，愿意相信我。。你不会知道这代表什么

当然部落格记录的未必全然是他，但是既然是他写的，我愿意相信，愿意支持
我喜欢看别人写的部落格，因为从中我可以了解一个人更多
我会发现我所不知道的事。。
就像我的部落格记载的都是我真实的心情，他渐渐已经成了一个分享的平台
我公布我内心的想法，你可以喜欢，你可以不爽
反正这就是我

昨天得知原来目前的房子的网路容量很有限，很失望
因为我若不上网还真的不知道要干嘛。。。工作找了又找
等了又等，时间就一直在不停的流失。。。

时间是人类享有唯一的公平吧，无奈最近自己引以为傲的time management似乎一败涂地
原来人生没有目的以后，什么条件，绝技都是徒然
或许现在是个转折点，但是我真的很不喜欢停留在转折点
尤其当你身边的人继续前进时，你却无助的只能原地踏步
很不喜欢被人牵着鼻子走，也不喜欢顺从命运
但是当你只剩下等待时，你只能决定你该继续等，抑或选择放弃

虽说告知自己一年的期限，感觉时间过的很快
一转眼，那期限就会来到我面前似的
我很害怕，因为我不愿这样结束。。。
有太多的束缚了，所以我依然不开心
有些束缚甚至是我自己打的结，但是我解不开
可能换个角度想，事情其实能迎刃而解
但是我说过了，我是一个太容易被影响的人
所以我宁可将自己藏起来，这样或许很不好
就像是乌龟那样躲进壳里，不勇敢一点面对现实
但是我自己明白，我只是太容易被别人的一句话改变我坚持的决定
或因为别人的言语，糟蹋了我原本开心的心情
原来自己竟然这么不堪一击。。。

忘了自己本来的模样，忘了以前面对失败是如何坚强
忘了自己是怎么一路走来，忘了自己当初的梦想
忘了自己一直在坚持什么，忘了自己。。。

life isn't easy, many people are watching, they want to see how we overcome it, how we fall, and how we stand
sometimes, they do care, they do wanna help, but may be, some of them just wanna see how you fall and they are happy that you are not able to stand up
who cares? I do...

but somehow, this creepy evil thoughts will just made life harder, made me suffered more
i am tired of this, and sometimes, i just wanna yell: leave me alone....none of your business....
how will i noe, if i hurt someone who really care about me?
however, i have forgotten the way to differentiate who are really standing for me....



be tough, be positive, this is what people always tell me
before they telling me that, what i did was telling them that i was stressed....
i noe, i always stand at those kind of status, exposing my weakness, letting people to hurt me badly....



seriously, i dunno, and i wont know...
that have been many times, i just wanna leave, leave everything behind...just ignore everything
but that's chicken, i am not running, i shudnt....i have no point to leave if i were not putting every single of my effort into it
at least i noe i haven't, and i definitely will regret for this....
just i am easily to be manipulated, i am easy to be influenced....



this mayb isnt true, but i should not tell others about my problem
cz to some extend, it is annoying, yes, it is...
even i have told them my problem, it wont help....i understand i am the only one who overcome it....
so why shud i tell all of u my problem, after u have listened, do u really care?? it is not border u at all, dont they?
cz is not urs....and if it really annoyed and border u. I will feel sorry for that....
and i do not wanna be a problematic person....not even the one who always have problem...

觉得奇摩的星座运程挺准的，应征了今天是悲伤的一天
其实原先还不错的，昨天的面试有点让自己自责
不是昨天做不好，而是过去做不好
所以不是像大家说的生活总会有些小挫折，很快没事的
但这挫折是过去造成的，我知道我还能在未来弥补
但是如果因此错失了一次机会，老实说，我会很不甘心

离别的钟一直在回荡，我的心情五味杂陈
有那么一丝寂寞，那么一丝孤单。。。
今天觉得自己很感性。。整个人很脆落
所以才会被那掷地有声的言语击得我无以言语吧
我不知道我应不应该感谢，因为其实我应该坦然接受
偏偏自己不是一个放得开的人，所以耳边一直有一句话在回荡：原来你那么容易被伤害
对那把声音，很刺耳
我仿佛看见他的笑容，阴沉的，奸诈的。。。

他一定在某个角落自得其乐，因为他把我伤害的体无完肤
而我一点都没有想反抗的意思
只是懦弱的把这一切发泄在某人身上
一直逃避我对他的在意，我被他的影响

有一天，我一定要脱离你的魔爪
就这一刻开始，我不再害怕了！