C'est LA viE

This is the second time, perhaps, last time I celebrated her Big day with her, my colleague, Halie.

To be honest, I actually like Halie, I mean as a friend~

She is very different from other kiwis I knew, while not that I knew a lot, but from whoever that I have met so far, Halie is different..

For some reasons, we clicked with each other very well. We shared the similar values upon dining, food, health concept, diet and both of us love Japan!

haha, the world isnt very big, but i think is not easy to find someone that u actually like and shared so many similar stuffs.

She just somehow remind me of Nicole as well...felt so grateful I met these awesome ppl in NZ. =D

Ok, is Halie's birthday today, i remember she hold a golden birthday last year and quite many colleagues  were there.

But this year is different, only me and Ping were invited as Halie is going to have another house warming party soon.

So she just trying to drag the other colleagues to her house, but both Ping and I got invited for both lovely events =D

Actually we celebrated her birthday since the first moment, 12am today.

We were at the hot shot show at Feilding last night and we dint go back Palmy but stay over Antony's, Ping's boyfriend who also a colleague's house

he has a nice house, and i played with his cat this morning, abdorable ^^

Then we drove back to Palmy for Brunch.

It was a very sunny day with my hot chocolate and omelette. This cafe was picked by Halie which was considered a popular cafe at Palmy, but since I had awesome omelette at Sydney, I didnt find the omelette good...anyways, i think i will miss the NZ brunch and cafe culture a lot!!

Got some rest after brunch, and ready for the night!

There were still many of us, with other people who are Halie's church friends and school mates.

The one got circled in red was me! And I am sitting just right beside the birthday girl~

We had dinner at the newly opened restaurant, Table 188.

Shamed that they placed us at 2 diferent tables and actually the meals were delivered very slowly~~

Apparently, Halie's sister is a chef at this restaurant too, but she was not on duty tonight, and she was with us =D

It is this the reason that the meal was not that amazing?

(photos downloaded from menu-mania website, i dint snap my main, bt it was pretty much same appearance, with just I ordered vege salad instead of kumara chips)

Well, I did not find their famous steak very delicious, it was just up to standard, with pretty much the same as other restaurants tho.

And the dessert was very 'usual' trio ice-cream, perhaps i ordered the wrong dessert....

But did not find it fit my palate, and what really hold me tonight was their broken unisex toilet door. =S

Someone just broken into the toilet while i was doing my business.....== Luckily it was an old lady, how if an unknown guy turned up?

I 100% confirmed that I locked the door, and i even checked if i locked it properly!

I should have told the staff u need to fix yr door, but anyways...i dont think i am coming back for second time.

Anyways, tonight is for Halie, it was still a fun night, happy birthday 'Bro'!

Well, i was clueless when Ping, my colleague asked me if i would like to join her for the show at Feilding.

Then after discovered it was actually a male strippers show, i was a bit hesistate about that...but after all, decided to go anyways since I am leaving NZ soon, probably chances are rare in Malaysia?

However, dont get me wrong, i am not interested and actually did feel it really disgusting.

After-all, i am not into muscular guys....well, my Mr.Right has to be fit and a man-shaped body, but he dont have to be muscular...

But for those lonely aged ladies, it must be a fun night for them.

There were actually a total of 4 stripper guys, with perhaps only one of them considered 'HOT'....

They did real stripping, not just at the front stage, they came approaching everyone!!

There were like around 9 of us from the company came out with this crazy group outing, and not everyone was enjoying it.

One of my colleague was really uncomfy, she just kept on buying drinks after drinks and tried to pull the table closer to her.

At the end, she was like 'trapped' on her seat, that's the way she wants to avoid to be approached or 'invited' by those strippers.

Haha, actually it was very fun to see her reaction that night, i did not feel easy either, but i dint do what she did.

I just tried to avoid eye-contact with them, and praying in my deep heart that they will not pick me!

Eventually i safe, but Ping did get pick-on, well she enjoyed though~

Yea, i think this is the only and last time i will go to this kind of show. I dint find it interesting after all, it's just i dont mind have an experience.

Did think they have done a good job as they really professional, if there are so many guys excited about strippers club, what's wrong with girl nite out for male stripper then?

wooah, it have been a week since I moved in Baxter, 2 weeks since I back to NZ...

life have been pretty much the same, the same daily work, the same routine lifestyle...

oh well, photos tell the story, so my lazy mode will just share some recent photos ^^

Found this at New World!! New World supermarket, do u believe it??!

I never imagine i could get a fancy fruit tart at New World! Omg, I have not gone New World for almost 2 yrs, because New World is not located at central Palmy.

Well, as I dont have a car, i just shop at Countdown and Pak n Save for my grocerries. I knew that New World bakeries had been doing great jobs compared with the other 2 supermarkets, but never come across my mind that their bakery department emerged that fast in which they now are doing different bakery varieties!

I should have photo their bakery bar, i just super excited when i saw them!

Hmm, perhaps is hard to found out the humid dry grass on this photos, apparently rain was missing in Palmy (probably the whole country) for a month!

Which means that I brought the rain home? =P, lol and it's still not raining since i back....

Apparently Palmy was announced to be drought zone today....it's really a bad news for farmers and the cows/sheeps....

rain rain, pls dont go away =S

Yen was asking me to capture this scene, it was around 7.30pm at Pak n Save carpark, cz it was still summer time, so the sun was just setting down...

i guess i will miss this beautiful scene a lot, but i think Malaysia will have a beautiful sunset too right? Well, we are still standing under the same sky~

The asam curry fish I cooked last Friday! Sweet!

Used the pre-made asam curry sauce which i brought from Malaysia, and the fish fillets from my 1st fishing trip last year =S (no worries, they are still fresh as I freezed them well!)

I cooked so much, which saved me for like almost 5 dinners...=S nt a very healthy way of eating tho.....

Having a catch-up with Nicole at Mar-becks cafe last Sunday.... really like their interior design! <3 Nicole was having fun with her iphone..

Discovered what is Foxton Fizz Spider, so actually it is just like a float....

I finally bought myself a hot-cross bun after spending 5 Easter without it.

The result? Nah, i dislike it, lol....

Although the bakery used the popular Hershey's chocolate, but i guess branded bread dint boost up the sales much?

Well at least to me, i dont think i will miss a cross bun for my next Easter...

Lastly, lollies/fudges brought from my Russian supervisor this morning, this is the 3rd time having them, i think i will miss them..

not missing the sweets, but the heart from Russia. =X

I guess bits by bits...i still having a grateful and wonderful life =) Thanks for everything

我反复的在想，我到底要的是什么？我想要什么样的人生？

我知道我希望我的人生不是庸庸碌碌，不是平凡行尸走肉朝九晚五的过。。。

我觉得世界很大，应该多去闯荡，去看看别人的城市，了解别人的生活，在检讨自己的幸福和不幸

我觉得人生就是一个不断反思，反省的过程。。。

我觉得人生很无常，不能等待，想做的事就应该去做，当然人生无常，所以不应该太过执作，应该放开胸怀

我觉得人生中领悟自己存在的价值和意义很重要，快乐也很重要。。。

我觉得对待人生的态度很重要，如何好好的活着是对自己的人生的一个尊重

那我到底要如何过我的人生才能满足上述的‘我觉得’？

我不想庸庸碌碌的过日子，所以我想要一份让我有激情，有挑战，有成就感，充实的工作。。。当然我不喜欢加班，不喜欢工作影响私人时间，但是如果这份工作是我喜欢的，让我觉得有意义的，我不介意把工作带回家，偶尔的加班。。。所以选择一份自己喜欢的工作很重要

目前的我已经肯定自己想要的工作是R&D,我想学习，我想去参加培训，我想要有工作上的自我增值，我想学习更多东西，我想学sensory, raw product的管理，packaging, finished product spec, prototype。。。每一步我都好奇，我都很有兴趣！

我不想再去读书，除非我的工作，或我未来的梦想需要我这么做。。。我宁可在市场上打转，学习工作上，社交上，沟通上，表达上，领导上，交涉上的技巧，让自己知道自己可以到的地方是多远，自己能够承受的苦头，能够面对挑战有多大。。。

我不敢说自己有信心，我不敢说我不会失败，但是我更害怕自己完全不尝试就打消念头，我讨厌自己停留在舒适地带，我讨厌自己一直是温室小花，我觉得风吹雨打才能让我成长，我需要领悟自己的不足，然后变成更棒的自己。。。

我想要拥有自己的车，我希望自己可以到处走，去看看自己没看过的风景，去发掘自己还没知晓的角落。。。不知为什么，可能是一直都不会开车的关系才让自己觉得会开车是一件多么重要，多么骄傲的事，才感觉到自己的独立和能力。。。

在事业上来说，我不知道不去奥克兰是不是错误的决定，但我可以感觉到自己的却是缺乏勇气去奥克兰从新开始，也更怕自己若真的在奥克兰发展后会不想回家了。。我会觉得如果我现在离开的话，我还能适应马来西亚的环境，因为我相信奥克兰一定好过马来西亚，尤其若我真的找到我想做的工作后。。。到时我还会想回家吗？但是很肯定的是，我很想家，我好想时时刻刻都呆在他们的身边，我好想让父母退休，自己来养他们。。。可能自己可以负担的能力不会太大，但是至少能帮妈妈减轻家务，让家里气氛暖和起来

也不能说家里需要我，因为没有这个家就没有我。对我来说，没有什么比家人更重要了。当然我明白我的事业对我的重要，所以我才会有上述一段话

今天之所以会写这篇文章，是因为今天哥哥的生日，我在他脸书上祝贺后，他回复的一段话让我有今天的想法

坦白的说，我依然不确定自己要得是什么，即使我有以上的想法，想做的事，但是对于人生，我不知道我要如何。。。

恩，失去梦想好久了的说，如果你问我现在梦想是什么，可能我会告诉你，回家找一份自己喜欢，充实而且能让自己进步的工作，然后陪伴家人更多，偶尔和家人朋友出国，或去别处旅行，然后想学日文，去日本旅行，考虑看是否应该去日本教英文的体验，然后交个稳定的男朋友。

那再伟大的梦想应该就是能够成为R&D 的经理了！好希望自己可以管辖不同的产品，提供意见，参与所有过程，甚至和客户还有市场部门打交道~我希望自己可以打照自己的食物品牌，不用开自己的公司，但有自己创造的食品就很满足了！

梦想不是一朝达成的。所以我才想在不同部门转转，学习不同的领域！

哇，突然间有梦想的感觉很棒！哈哈，我真的很白痴。。。

突然在想，为什么我那么在意别人对我决定的认同？婉倩啊婉倩，你的自信心真的是严重不足啊！

哥，真挚的感谢你对我的关怀！也让我重新面对（虽然没有百分百）自己到底要什么的想法！

思考继续前进中。。。。